I Would Rather Be a Friendless Loser, Than Have a Bunch of Friends Who Secretly Hate Me.

Most people would say that they have many best friends, I have one. For the most part, I am a generally friendly person. I am always open to talk to anybody. I have respect for anyone until they gave me a reason not to. I also trust people until they give me a reason not to too. I give people to much benefit, and always ending up hurt. I know that you're probably thinking that I am to young to know what a "True" friend is, but I'm pretty sure I know.

Most everyone has lost a friend due to the fact that each person changes, and grows up. Friends are always fighting, cause that's how life is. I lost some friends last year. Not necessarily because of my actions, but of theirs as well. To this day I am still not sure what started this HUGE fight. Around this time, last year, my four best friends got together, without me, and honestly the next thing I know I am getting this real angry phone call from them saying horrible things to me. Don't get me wrong, I defended myself in a way I shouldn't have. I said things I will never be able to get back. I still regret it. But from then on were never the same. I of course, tried to repair the issues, because I hate to fight. Nothing ever was the same. I honestly realized that I had alot of friends that cared about me, but I always ignored them because of my "group".  From then on I was never apart of a group, it always leads to troubles. 

So towards the end of the year, I was getting real tired of fighting. It was constant. I was thankful for summer approaching and hopeing it would cool things off. It did cool off a little, but never fully quit. I had learned how to survive with out "close" friends. Sure, it was hard, not being able to tell many people things and constantly worrying and watching out for yourself. I think it was the best thing that has ever happened to me, I grew up. Learned how to stand on my own, and I learned how to forgive people.

Starting a new year, fresh beginning, I was hopeing that they had grew up over the summer. They hadn't, except one of them. Fresh start. I talked to her, it wasn't easy, and we both understood why. But I got her to talk about it, and we told sides, and then we realized they we had been played. We both appologized, and we kind of started our friendship again. Sure, it was hard to trust each other again, but we got there. Now I beleive that our frienship is stronger than ever, honestly. One of the best quotes I have ever heard fits this story now.

"no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that."

For obvsious reasons, I have trust issues. But I trust Devin with my whole life. She knows everything about me. Everything. I go to her for anything. If i need her at 4 o'clock in the morning then she is there. No doubt about it. I met Devin in first grade. I really didn't like her at all when I met her. I honestly didn't start to like her at all until about fifth grade, isnt that sad? Haha. But we became best friends instantly. I am super gald I have a person who knows everything about me, and still wants to be my friend. 

I would rather be a friendless loser, than have a bunch of friends that secretly hate me.  

The Little Things :)

Honestly, I"m not one to tell anyone that they should appreciate anything. Because half the time I don"t stop and think about how blessed I am. But recently, when I think of the little things that are so important I stop and write them down. I've been doing this for about two months, and I have a huge list. I really just wanted to share things that I think are under appreciated.

• hugs from behind.
• when someone misses you.
• the smell of an old book.
• sleeping on fresh sheets.
• surprising people with a talent they never knew you had.
• the cold side of a pillow.
• people with laugh lines.
• when the first text you see is from the person you love.
• accents :)
• when someone is excited to se you.
• the hug from someone you haven't seen in a long time.
• falling asleep to the sound of rain.
• lick from a puppy.
• when a little kid draws you a picture.
• siging at thetop of your lungs.
• mismatched socks.
• when you and your best friend say the same thing at the same time
• when you finally remember the name of the song that been stuck inyour head.
• finding money in your pockets.
• just shaved legs
• instant friendships.
• when his family lovesss you. :))
• watching a new episode of your favorite TV show.
• teachers you can joke with.
• when your parents talk about you with pride.
• realizing it's friday.
• long roadtrips at night.
• gummy worms.
• the first swim of summer.
• when other families treat you like a member.
• being in a great mood, just because you can be. 
• when a persons laugh is funnier that the joke.
• guys who smell good.
• deep conversations with your best friend.
• finishing a good book
• cookies sraight ou of the oven.
• waking up, and remember your dream.
• laughing intil your stomach hurts.
• handwritten letters.
• when someone loves your art work.
• songs that match your mood. 
• singing in the shower.
• finding out that a person feels the same way as you do.
• getting an A on a test that you didnt study for.
• taking a perfect picture.
• nicknames
• star-gazingg. 
• hearing that you were in someones dreams
• being awake while everyone else is alseep.
• lettig chocolate melt in your mouth.
• a simple compliment from a stranger. 
• when someone texs back instantly.
• compliments when you look a mess.
• walking barefoot on grass.
• smiling in the middle of a kiss.
• when someone plays with your hair.
• wearing your pajamas all day.
• when he smiles at you.
• late-night phone conversations.
• when someone tells you that you smell good. 

I think everyone should appreciate the small things in life that are amazing. :)

Obsessed Much?

Everybody has obsessions, right? Well I happen to have a bunch. 

10: My number ten obsession would have to be crazy socks! I pretty much own every color of crazy socks possible. What to get me for my birthday, or Christmas? CRAZY SOCKS!

9: My number nine obsession would have to be gum. I love gum, i pretty much always have to be chewing gum. Espescially mint gum. Peppermint, polar ice. All of it.

8: My number eight obsession would to be the Peddlers Mall.  love that place, there are sooo many crazy, things there. It may look like junk, but the saying "One man's junk, is another man's treasure."

7: My number seven obsession would have to be flowers. I love love love flowers. All flowers, alive ones, dead ones, all of them. They are beautiful. My favorite kind are Daisy's.

6: My number six obsession is books. I love to read, beleive it or not, i really do. All kinds of books. I love the smell of an old book, and the sound of a new book.

5: M number five obsession would have to be Mountain Dew. Im obssesed with the bottle, the drink, and the label. In fact, im drinking it now. :)

4: My number four obsession is collages. I love making them, i make them all the time. For me, my friends, everything.

3: My number three obsession is Secrets. I found post secrets last year, and i have been hooked ever since. So nw i hae my own obx of secrets in my room, its full. I just love it.

2: My number two obsession is ORANGE JUCIE! I honestly drink it with everything. EVERYTHING. It is th best thing in the whole world, besides my number one obsession. (;

1: My number one obsession is.....TAYLOR SWIFT! I love her, im sooooooooooo obsessed. So obsessed. In fact I am going to my first concert, and it is a TAYLOR SWIFT one!!!!! Ahhhhhhh!

Maybe you know alittle more about me now. :)

But these are my obsessions, and You Better Believe It.

I'm Aryn. I have always wanted to blog, so I tried video blogging. That was a huge failure. So now I am trying this blogging. Everyone is always coming to me to vent out their feelings, and i wanted a way to vent mine. I hope you enjoy. :)