Most people would say that they have many best friends, I have one. For the most part, I am a generally friendly person. I am always open to talk to anybody. I have respect for anyone until they gave me a reason not to. I also trust people until they give me a reason not to too. I give people to much benefit, and always ending up hurt. I know that you're probably thinking that I am to young to know what a "True" friend is, but I'm pretty sure I know.
Most everyone has lost a friend due to the fact that each person changes, and grows up. Friends are always fighting, cause that's how life is. I lost some friends last year. Not necessarily because of my actions, but of theirs as well. To this day I am still not sure what started this HUGE fight. Around this time, last year, my four best friends got together, without me, and honestly the next thing I know I am getting this real angry phone call from them saying horrible things to me. Don't get me wrong, I defended myself in a way I shouldn't have. I said things I will never be able to get back. I still regret it. But from then on were never the same. I of course, tried to repair the issues, because I hate to fight. Nothing ever was the same. I honestly realized that I had alot of friends that cared about me, but I always ignored them because of my "group". From then on I was never apart of a group, it always leads to troubles.
So towards the end of the year, I was getting real tired of fighting. It was constant. I was thankful for summer approaching and hopeing it would cool things off. It did cool off a little, but never fully quit. I had learned how to survive with out "close" friends. Sure, it was hard, not being able to tell many people things and constantly worrying and watching out for yourself. I think it was the best thing that has ever happened to me, I grew up. Learned how to stand on my own, and I learned how to forgive people.
Starting a new year, fresh beginning, I was hopeing that they had grew up over the summer. They hadn't, except one of them. Fresh start. I talked to her, it wasn't easy, and we both understood why. But I got her to talk about it, and we told sides, and then we realized they we had been played. We both appologized, and we kind of started our friendship again. Sure, it was hard to trust each other again, but we got there. Now I beleive that our frienship is stronger than ever, honestly. One of the best quotes I have ever heard fits this story now.
"no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that."
For obvsious reasons, I have trust issues. But I trust Devin with my whole life. She knows everything about me. Everything. I go to her for anything. If i need her at 4 o'clock in the morning then she is there. No doubt about it. I met Devin in first grade. I really didn't like her at all when I met her. I honestly didn't start to like her at all until about fifth grade, isnt that sad? Haha. But we became best friends instantly. I am super gald I have a person who knows everything about me, and still wants to be my friend.
I would rather be a friendless loser, than have a bunch of friends that secretly hate me.
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